Mental Block

Good gravy! It's been too long since my last post. I've been struggling emotionally and physically. I was so tired that I found myself just falling asleep as soon as I was still enough. I also found myself crying and felt like I was going crazy. Training, being a mom, house keeper, wife, scout leader, and what ever else I do was all too much. Most people would tell me to give up and be happy with what I've already accomplished but I'm stubborn and don't give up that easily.
Our family recently had the opportunity to watch the LDS General Conference, it was very uplifting and helped "fill my cup". We've started scripture study, with 4 of 6 reading it goes by quite nicely. We've gotten better with family prayer as well. The days have been better, but there is still much needed improvement. :)
I recently had lunch with some girlfriends and we were able to talk and really get out our struggles. What I learned was I wasn't alone. So many times I see other women and the lives they lead, but what I don't see is their home life, their real home life. I don't know their worries, fears, struggles because we are all so scared to let the world know we are less than perfect. I'm here to tell the world that I'm not perfect, I'm far from it, but I work daily to be a better me, a better parent, a better wife. It's okay to cry and to be frustrated with life, but try to always return to the good you have and embrace it.

Training has been really good, I've had to skip a few days for more recovery time, but I feel myself getting stronger each workout. Last Saturday I did a Tri on my own. 2000 yd swim, 2:15 bike, and 6 mike run. The swim was at the gym, the bike was on my friends trainer at home and the run was outdoors. My sweet husband followed me in the van and had my accelerade ready every mile. He also had 4 kids with him, the baby took a nap and the other 3 watched a movie and got icee's. I was really impressed with my run, 10 min miles! I was sooooo tired afterward, but it felt good to know that I could finish a Tri strong. This weeks training has been a bit hard since I pushed myself on Saturday, but I've done it and I feel great.

To end today's post I want to say that you can count on me to do my best. I will not quit! I may struggle but I will come out victorious. I CAN do everything that God graciously puts in my path. I'm grateful for everything in my life.

Chris :)